Just the Beginning

I often question my ability to do lots of things. I wonder if I can get passed the past. I mean, no one is perfect right? I guess I just fear my past coming back to haunt me and stop me from accomplishing every goal that I have set. My past isn't some horrific nightmare full of prison time or abuse. It is a past that is so very real, a past that more and more people probably have, but their past isn't on a public board for all to see and exaggerated to suit the adgenda of others.
Just a black cloud that looms over you, but it has to be dealt with. There has to be a way. I am certain of it.

Now, onto the good stuff. I am currently 15 weeks and 4 days pregnant with twins. WOW! I honestly would have never thought that I would be carrying twins. It is such a miracle and a joy. I love the couple I am helping and I am so thankful the Lord has allowed me to be a gestational surrogate for the 3rd time. I keep thinking I should be done but can't help but feel the desire to carry one more time. We will see what the Lord has in store. I will be heading out to LA for the third trimester of this pregnancy and delivery with three kids in tow. I am very excited but nervous at the same time. I am going to miss my sweetheart for sure. Well, off to homeschooling I go. Will check in soon!